HOPE

Hope sometime can be a dangerous words..hope can make a man loose his mind when he hope on something to hard and he never gets it...

Like me here...lately,every morning i woke up i will check my handfon is there any text from her i hope she will text me...sometimes when my fon ringing i thought that was her who the one calling me..but not...
when i walk to go somewhere i always hoping tht ill see her or meet her somewhere..haha..i realy miss her..i hope i get her back but she dont want...rejected me hard..wht could i do...i only can hope.. hope hope and hope...haha...i juz dont know..and im keep asking myself..am i stupid,blind or crazy??stupid coz hoping on someone tht dont want u..or...blind coz cant see tht she rejected u hard n dont want u..or..going crazy waiting and hoping for nothing...???

Untill when will i be this way keep hoping about her...hmm..i think i should stop hoping all this...and hope for a beter future and a beter year next year...:)

4.00 am

The clock is showing the time is 4am in the morning and im still awake..i dont even know y..hmm..my eyes are tired n im so fucking feel like wanted to sleep right now..but i cant n i hate it..i try to close my eyes not to think but anything..but still cant..shit!!what is happening to me....??can someone plz tell me..hmm..

Lately i have trouble with sleep...maybe im thinking to much...many things happen to me lately..i dont know until when ill be like this...6am then only i can sleep..mylife juz becoming un healthy..hmm..right now im doing nothing juz log on to my fb,listening to jazz music while smoking with a glass of nescafe...haha..

i juz dont know how to repair back my sleep..juz want a normal everyday life..not like now..fuck!!

WELCOME

Hye...im new to this thing..im here coz one of my friend make me to be here..im not realy good in expressing myself by words..but i give a try..who knows i might write something good..:)
at first i dont realy intrest to do this thing..i usualy juz talking to myself..haha..but im not crazy..chill..:)
i dont know wht to tell u guys bout me..nothing much tht i can tell i think..im juz a simple person living in this big world who trying to survive my day..not realy a sports men...but i play a few sports..the most i played and can be say active in it is basketball..i juz dont know why im getting acdicted to it..im not tht good but i can play..hee :)

hmm..wht to tel more?like i said juz now there is nothing much to tell bout me...huh..one more thing i love to play video games...but lately im not anymore...i dont know y..maybe coz im becoming older..haha..wht a boring dude i am....haissh...maybe coz of tht she left me..haha..hmm let it be...

i think thts all for now...i juz dont know how to tell more bout me...but if want to know me better juz wait for my post later on...maybe it can help telling who or wht type of dude i am..haha...before i mke u guys who ever read this more bored with my blog i think i should stop now...haha..bye wish me luck in evrything...:D